Where many might find themselves
When one reads all the private writings and even among the versions authorized by the Church we find so many of the sojourners seem to have toured Hell. They talk of either going up from hell to heaven or conversely going down from Heaven in to hell, as though it is the same building with stairways between each floor for easy access. Let me tell you of my experience, for what it is worth.
One night seven or eight years ago, I awoke from a sound sleep with a strong voice calling me and instructing me to come to Him. So I did.
I went from the bedroom into the living room and the light was so bright I could count the pine needles on the trees across the lake 100 metres away. Where I lived at that time was way beyond city limits and at night there was not even a glow from any city lights, there was one street light a long way up the road.
I heard the voice say, "Sit down", so I did and immediately the world went the blackest I have ever experienced. It was a cmplete absense of even the dullest glimmer of light. My heart ached with loneliness. I thought that I was having a heart attack but it was not the same pain. It was the knowledge God had gone from me with all His graces. It was David's phrase , "Turn not your face from me or take your Holy Spirit away". I knew that there was nothing I could do He had left and I would never experience Him again in the way we all feel His influences. I ached with the loss. One could say my desolation was complete and final. I knew somehow this feeling was the hell we may all earn and I tell you this, the place where I was I knew of a certainty there would be no more access to Him from there. He was gone. I had lost Him for all eternity. Most of you who read this from all accounts will be in this state for all eternity. I wish those feelings I had on no one. How long it lasted I cannot say but the time it took for me to be there was enough for me.