Part 2…..Defining Private revelations as a tool of silencing, power, control and false obedience:
At the opening mass of Vatican 2, John 23rd said and like so many of the Catholics do, Bishops, priests and laity alike, I will use text proofing on his homily to make my point. “In the daily exercise of our pastoral office we sometimes have to listen, much to our regret, to voices of persons, who, though burning with zeal (misplaced) are not endowed with too much discretion (discernment) or measure”. ‘Parentheses contain my additions. This might just be a papal condemnation made with or without discernment. My meaning is that in a very certain sense it could be very true when seen to be applied to so-called private revelations without ‘discernment’. Again, I write somewhat personally and contrary to any of your opinions this is not a defence of my personal spiritual life but an explanation made as factually as possible of the mysticism available to those who honestly attempt to be truly apostolic catholic. This is every Catholic, those who are fully paid up and practicing members of the Christian Church, who truthfully fulfill the word ‘faithful’. The Church renamed Katolikos or Universal around 122 AD. I mean those catholics who are practicing or using the Sacraments or Holy Mysteries of the Church properly, and in the right disposition receive the effective graces of the sacrament they have prepared diligently to receive. I mean the use of solemn baptisms, very regular use of the sacrament of reconciliation or penance, fasting and abstinence and prayer that has taken them into the stage of prayer called uniative. I realize that there are stages in prayer, that precede the uniative prayer of silence and meditation but if these stages do not lead to a holy communion with the Trinity then I believe truly that the claim, to the companionship that we and God are seeking, is questionable. What I am saying every Catholic has the means available to be mystical according to the Divine Will of God.
I do write here about private revelations. Any student of the English language can conceive this phrase is a misnomer. Catholics should make themselves available to Divine Revelations. I will not believe that there are private revelations. There are without doubt personal ones. This foolishness in the use of private revelations found when the phrase is used for control just as is the word, obedience as it is more often false or blind. There are personal revelations and those revelations or warnings for the good of the faithful. I would go as far as to write and state they are not for the personal use of the hierarchy priests and laity. I say anyone of good sense and informed conscience knows this and it is only pride that would cause them to be broadcast willy-nilly. I mean there are revelations that are to be used by the priesthood to bring us back to the narrow path and gate, that way of truth, which will save our souls. Did not God in the Old Law let His people know of His displeasure? Did Christ change this? The way of truth for the priests is not one of love for themselves but to be as Christ was on earth, as He is now for all eternity, they must be a love for others as He did, was and is. Their way is a way of personal sacrifice not personal ambition for power. They cannot and should not dare to silence God’s voice but should seek discernment through prayer and an observance of the personal habits of the one who comes to him for spiritual advice. I hope this is in the confessional. The priest confided in should at least be able to say unless you are regular in your seeking grace in the confessional and the consolation of the Eucharist, I cannot believe you, as I see no encouragement for belief in your spiritual life. That answer takes the other virtue priests should have, “Fortitude”.
Rrevelations are not the sign seeking of holiness as embraced by the mystery religions of the charismatics but loving communications of God to His child for the benefit of His Community. This is ascertained by discernment, a gift of God’s grace sadly lacking in the Holy Catholic and Apostolic Church today. Discernment I find in myself at times can be the warm fuzzies of my sensual will, this is a personal feeling and therefore must be dismissed. I can sum this up this way, a charismatic once told me, “When I speak in tongues, it feels so good”. My answer, “So did fornication when I practiced it”. Incidentally, the Church has taught we are effected by three wills, the Divine Will, our rational will and our sensual will. Fr. Scupoli wrote, spiritual warfare is the struggle of the rational will to do God’s Will when our sensual will gives us pleasure urging us do otherwise and in doing so we are likely to sin. It becomes for most of us a feeling of peace and happiness. This is when we lack discernment. Why should we not have this feeling of peace when the devil, the world, or the flesh has had his way with us and we as the Hebrews believed fornicated with the serpent, committed adultery with a false spirit. Satisfied, satanic filth leaves us with a contented feeling
Here are my conditions:-
Let me now give examples and explanations derived from thinking (pondering) on my personal interior life, of my thoughts, understanding and knowledge. I had the start of a metanoia when I became aware a time ago that when I was at prayer, that is very very deep in prayer, thoughts occurred that answered my thoughts. It was a pleasant conversation that made me uncomfortable with my behavior towards others. I realized my acts of charity towards others were a pavlovian reaction to the word 'love' I did these acts not as a catholic should but only when I remembered and really did not have my whole heart involved. I would go so far as to say it is no different for the majority of catholics. This means that we are not practicing our faith with fervor just going through the motions. Twice in scriptures, once in the Old and once in the New this way of ours is called tepid. Read the reward we will receive from God for this way of ours. You will find it in Revelations. I had no knowledge of how to handle these thoughts and I asked of them. Why are you happening? I must say I had to negotiate with my thoughts before I could act on them because of my feelings for them. They made me feel good. The excuse, perhaps for my negotiations were, I did not want at anytime to lead souls astray. I had done that by bad example too many times in my life. I needed a discernment that I was not capable of, on my own.
“They would not let me lead souls astray. I would find everything I thought of in scriptures and one way or another, it would be confirmed from sources I could accept.
The first thought was, “You will not go astray, We will call you back” The next day the phone rang and a women I trusted told me the beginnings of a prayer and I said would it be OK if I added these words and of course she said. I also did find answers in a prayer I found in scriptures. I also did not get it from silly experts who said you must test the spirits. No one could answer my question, "How" Some said "in Prayer". I asked these uninformed, "What sort of prayers should I say?" Yet it is very plain in Scripture what words we should ask. It depends partly on do we really believe all that Jesus promised us.
I thought I needed a spiritual guide and when I asked a priest he told me to come to him for confession but he could not be my S.G. as he would have to get the permission of the Local Bishop. Unfortunately, he will order me to close you down. He did tell me he was scared of what I would do to the Church after listening to what I thought. Although the prophecy I made about His Life caused him as he admitted to go to the Blessed Sacrament and thank God it was not him that was given this specific prayer. I will continue with both personal and other thoughts that are for the good of others. Forgive if I trespass on anyone’s susceptibilities.