The hierarchs that rule the Church today, within each of their fiefdoms, rule with an iron hand. Yet these are the ones who in
Now I want to return, with you, to my thoughts on revelations, private or public. Of course, by now some of you will realize that these opinions come from my personal experiences and from the contemplation on them as I struggle to discern the source. Now since I can honestly say I have had never received help from those from whom I have sought it. Those who should have, I mean. One priest told me he could not help me, although from what I did for him, showing Him something miraculous counted as nothing. He could not help me, as, if or when he reported it to the local ordinary, looking for permission to be my help, he would be told to close me down. Did he believe? Of course, this will give many who might read this blog the reason to dismiss this letter easily. It gives an easy and simple way out for the majority of the priesthood, but not for their consciences. I do not find this attitude amongst the older and more experienced priests. They are good men who try so hard to be hopeful. It is these dedicated men, who I find lonely and swamped with despair. They are not priests for their ego. These are the ones for whom I have the most pity and prayers.
I should think there are some priests who actually meditate on the numerous revelations we read or hear of today. It is probable they get dread feelings and a cold fear of the dishonesty, which their subconscious feels as they consider the meanings of all these messages. I have the same feelings many times. I ask in prayer for the truth and I receive it strongly. Often meditating on the revelations, claimed and real, that abound in the world today. I realize we have to look for guidance and truth. What if the institution we look to for guidance has abdicated its position, preferring to lead from the back thus avoiding controversy? I ask is it not possible that God through the Holy Spirit is trying to pass on His needs for the world, always asking for an improvement of our behavior towards Him and surprisingly enough answering our prayers. I could ask this in another way, "Is there no grace in the Church?" Could some of these outpourings from the Holy Spirit be pleas for ears to hear and eyes to see? What do we do if we find our thoughts are an answer to our prayerful queries? We seek guidance from those who are supposed to guide and we find there is absolute silence on the side of the Hierarchy, a dismissal of any thoughts or warnings. Yet you can find some of the uninspired guides who would reply, "You are looking for signs". Now I write any semblance of criticism of the ruling powers, must be resisted or some kind of correction will always follow. Will this correction be a change of attitude or a punishment? Who will be punished? Who will be corrected? This absence of guidance, this abandonment of the position to which they are called is shocking. As one priest asked me concerning a woman visionary, "Is Mrs. for real?" I quickly replied, "You are a priest. Pray and you will know the answer". Thank God he did not say I have prayed. That is a whole new kettle of fish. I ask you all to consider deeply, “Is my faith erroneous? Am I truly wrong?”
One day at the Easter Vigil as the priest processed down the church to the altar, the light darkened and I was in a dark underground room with a body wrapped in white before me. A woman in a black mantle with gold Grecian frets around it, her veil covering her face, asked me would I pray with Her for the Church? What is that, private or public? Should I be praying on my own for the Church? Are there too few praying for the Mystical Body. Later while praying for the Church, I knew that, “Jesus and I want Our church back”. The Hierarchy will claim this is not from heaven. Why not, because as far as they are concerned, Fr Pussy Willow et al’s behavior is not defiling the Church and has not changed in any way the Church's teachings on sins of same sex. Here is one that is likely to cause a big uproar. “A great many of the Bishops are not in a state of grace” I was born in
Will this shameful lack of action not soon lead to such a trial for the Church? Might ithe trial be the correction written of above? Our church since