Some of you, that is one or two priests and friends privately have approached me on the contents of my blog. The summation of their advice is, "harsh words never made friends, or you will catch more flies with honey". With sincere apologies to you all, flies hang around decaying meat and very few kind words change opinions. It is souls I would like to save in some poverty stricken way of mine. Example does save though, as Christ recommended His disciples would be successful by their example. I believe it . He also told us He came to heal the poor and there would be those who would see neither His works nor listen to His words and the situation is much worse today. Some obviously were poor in knowledge of God. So I will continue to try in my way to crack the harsh shell of opinions and wrong thoughts that shelter the minds of today, so filled with passions and emotions. Emotions from my experience and from reading are invariably wrong and sometimes dreadfully in error. Often catechumens have been taught in erroneous ways but for them it feels so nice to believe as the teacher is so holy. Well, it is not everyone who says Lord! Lord! (Holy! Holy!) will enter the Kingdom. I believe very sincerely in “Free Will” and you have the right to believe what you may but you cannot dodge the responsibility to think about what you believe and checking it against Church teachings.
Look at what I write. Look at the character of the man who wrote these thoughts. Regular confession, many prayers to seek discernment and truth, with my frightening thoughts I may be leading people astray and only then do I write. Some have said in the past I write hatefully and yet in my entire life I know I have had less than ten occasions in my mind of such a hatred I needed to harm some one. The other times witnessed by some are storms at sea. They are over immediately and never carried out. It is too much effort to keep on being too annoyed. So what kind of hatred is that. When considered I find that it is always been against certain peoples' actions. I cannot stand to see those of a commanding presence or position using it against those who never want to harm or be a nuisance and are just happy to carry on with their life. I am often aghast at those in authority whose hubris demands, "I am right, do as your told, behave." I have been known to step in on those occasions, purple in face and violent in demeanor.
Consider, as I have often done, my behavior by ancient catholic teachings, comparing it to what hatred is and what the two parts consists of. One can witness over and over in conversations with many who join the Church, who enter her from religions or cults and yes even cradle catholics today do not know or cannot begin to fathom out what hatred is and how to view it. Hatred consists of two parts, one showing in many cases mostly spitefulness with a determination to get justice but really it is vengeance. How often do we see it aimed at priests in the Church today and is nearly always unwarranted. This we must consider this part as definitely sinful, grievously so. It carries on in actions when we do as little as possible for those priest-men who in almost every event of their life, make efforts to save our souls. Sometimes strongly and sometimes weakly. Beset with the same temptations as us that is to criticize or to ignore us, they can’t. They stand there and have to field accusations of being un-spiritual from those who never visit them in the confessional for private spiritual advice. That is a bigoted hatred on our part and if you have acted in a way close to, or even not so harshly as I have put it, even to the extent of speaking about it or even as I have unfortunately felt victorious over these unarmed men, then do as I have, go and confess your sin. If you are convinced you have spoken factually and did not do it to calumniate or detract from their character be content. Although it would be advantageous in any case to go to confession and you will be instructed by the Holy Spirit ever present in these private spiritual conversations that are driven by repentance or the thought of preserving oneself as the Psalmist prayed from temptations, occasions and the misfortunes of sin.
The second part of hatred is not a sin but needs a great deal of thought upon one’s actions. If confronted with what is bad behavior, bad action or a bad thought shared with you then we can become filled, if I believe one is in a state of the grace that sanctifies, with perfect hate as the Psalmist again prayed. “Your enemies (sin) have become mine and I hate them with a perfect hate”. The Church calls this virtuous wrath. To think of yourself this way, go to confession get advice from you parish priest. He is your spiritual adviser. He is appointed by the Church to be the parish confessor. Realize of course we are human and no matter how we consider ourselves we are sinners and the perfection Christ commanded us to seek is always a moment or two away. To react with a virtuous wrath is also the basis of avoiding the contagion of sin found in bad companions and the three complicit acts by which we sin. Daily if one examines one’s conscience we are complicit in others' sins through advice, helping and by not telling them of the danger that exists for the action you may be finding you so dislike. Of course you may due to a lack of teaching see some of these recommended actions as judging. I say they are not but they are moral observations and when not applied for the protection of your soul could cause you serious problems in your eternity.
A prayer I say daily that helps me is
“Preserve me O Lord from the temptations, the occasions and the misfortunes of sin. Do not let the devil claim me as his”.
At least then God sees we are starting to develop the will not to sin and the Essence that is God who knows all things can judge our mind for the severity of our spiritual peccadilloes and He does send help.