All Conversations in My Heart
More on Fortitude...Mea Culpa
You have read yesterday’s blog, and I hope you will begin to understand my recollection of my so-called virtue of fortitude. I suffer from disturbing lack of that virtue and in fact, it is a sin against the Holy Ghost, denying Christ's words. It is as many of the laity in the Catholic Church say or act, thus calling Christ a liar. He told us we would be never lost for words before Kings and Princes. What form does that lack of bravery take? This is so easy to write now I have thought it through and believe I can annunciate my lack verbally. This does not mean it is any the less of a sin because I have looked at it. It is the same sin you of many of you commit. It is spinning the works of God and reducing it to a mere cipher, putting it aside, procrastinating, hiding the Word of God that should be in us, through grace. It is spouting off phrases like saying, “I confess my sins to God”. We deny ourself the gesture of humility, by bending down before a priest, in the confessional. Without the practice of humility, which I feel is a charitable posture before God admitting to our sinful state before a man chosen by God and the Mystical Body to administer the Sacraments for and on us.
What then is my lack? It concerns the words I experience as I pray. It concerns the conversations that take place in the deep interior of my heart, its very center, Fortunately I do not put them aside but soften because I know their harshness will bring recriminations and abuse. I have decided I must change and therefore let me start now.
I believe these are the words of Him who creared us. Often I do nothing with them because of the reasons above.
The Prayers I often receive are not the sweet smelling incense I desire but the smell of the sewer from infected minds. Some pray unintelligibly out of a self-proclaimed intelligence. They insult My Divine Intelligence. Do they think I gave them an ability only to mutter and grumble in grunts and spitting? Is that how they worship me? Their prayers coming from their lips are requests for fornication with My Enemy. When will they learn? Must I demonstrate harshly, the fruits of their prayers? I do not hear them. Tell them who does. You have witnessed my wrath make it known. Have I not given you the strength to know and write? Are you the same as those others of My creation? What did you promise? Are you like the others so welcome to receive my will, a will that pleases them or do you deny, dismiss the actions of My Wrath as unsuitable? No one will be surprised when at the final judgment as I take My just rewards for their infidelity. If they are, then be sure you were not the cause of their lack of knowledge.
The last lines are for me. The first ones are for others.
The Virtue of Fortitude
Lately the virtue of fortitude and some ideas about it have occupied my mind. These thoughts have given me to believe that fortitude must be hard nosed and sincere. Applying these conditions to myself, in examining my conscience, I confess though somewhat brave, I am as accommodating as anyone else in the world today. Examining one’s conscience daily is a dreadful occasion but can become for us all an act of salvation. Difficult to do though it is, I find personally that I do improve spiritually, just a little I am afraid. Many of you will say ‘no way’ but I must hope it is so, how else will I reach the perfection to which we are directed to by the Master of Salvation, Jesus Christ when He said, “Be perfect as your Father in heaven is perfect”. There are many, who deny this perfection, thus they call, as we do on many occasions, our Lord Jesus Christ, the Son of Truth, a liar. Be careful and as I warn myself, the road to hell is paved with good intentions.
In one of the last blogs I wrote Mary asked me to pray for the Church. I have been doing so for the last few years. I have always used the Divine Mercy Chaplet. Lately Mary was more specific. I need to pray for the darkness in the Church to come into the Light. Perhaps an apt comparison would be to open the windows to blow out the smoke. Also some of you may wish to pray for the forgotten souls. Those who languish in Purgatory whose relatives no longer believe in the Church's dogma concerning Purgatory and never pray for them or whatever reason exists.
I usually pray this way
Almighty and Eternal God, consuming fire of terrible jealous love, I offer You the Body and Blood of Your Son, our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. In particular I offer each drop of the precious blood Jesus shed from the garden to the grave and ask that for each of those drops shed for mankind would You please release a poor soul from Purgatory? I ask especially for those who Mary wants released. Amen
Pray with me and perhaps we might nearly empty Purgatory.