The Well Lorna Keras and Me the Last Moments Part 3
Just to finish off the story of the relationship between the Visionary Mrs Keras and Myself, I wish to make it apparent that I cannot use such words a seer or apparitionist. I find them derogatory to Catholic Sensibilities and even more so towards the Workings of the Trinity and Mary, Their Queen. The old, tried and true catholic word Visionary is and has been always appropriate.
I wrote before about the book I printed for Lorna. Her second book. It had in a progression of time at least seven or eight editors of one sort or another. Bill Girard whom I had just met took me to see Lorna, his was a concern of a belief that the editing situation had got out of hand. He never said this in so many words but the way he applied a gentle pressure to get it printed and published made this a probable assumption. I also wrote before it was very obvious that when Lorna spoke to people, many of the others present were not privy to the conversation. I knew and Lorna often re-iterated she herself did not remember many times what was said, told or instructed. One fact I always found as a comfort was Lorna said from time to time after she talked to me was, she heard Angels singing, "Victory is ours"
The end for me in our relationship, for which I was there for only one thing, I was asked a question, always asked of those who came was, "Will you work for Me?" sometimes it was 'us', sometimes 'do' I too was asked I said yes and God who through His Spirit has an understanding and knowledge of us took it further. I can vouch for that in the fact that only one of the many I took kept their promise. The man, I took, probably never links the work he does with the imprisoned, as a logical corollary to his yes to God. Others just did not comprehend or wished to or never believed what was happening to them.
One Friday at the hour of mercy, always scrupulously observed by Lorna, we prayed for guidance on the printing this was at least two months after I had joined them. Lorna when finished said someone was told to print the book. I had been loudly and clearly. I admitted to hearing. I was given the floppy and then it was taken away. The leading handmaid said wait a minute one last look for errors. A man Gerry something or other said he would do it. We made arrangements to meet late on the following Sunday and he would have made the necessary corrections. I felt it was a last ditch effort to keep it out of my hands but why should I worry. I knew from previous actions that I worried them. They all knew that for me Lorna was the only one who could say yes or no to me. I believed and still do that at that moment in time when Lorna was used by heaven, this was between her and God not between her, me and the handmaidens.
I turned up Sunday and Gerry absolutely refused to give me the book. I had expected this and said when would he have it ready. He gave no real answer. I said I would take it, I said it strongly and very reluctantly he handed it over. What I have not said is that Mrs Keras was under such stress, her friends were acquainted with the demands from Jesus of when would the Book be published. Lorna's skin eruptions had flared up and she was frightened (maybe too strong a word) of the conversations she was having with our Savior. She told us all.
I could not understand in the name of the Charity which all her followers claimed ,why any of them could subject her to such torments. I did understand and so would anyone who thought for one moment of the seriousness of the occasions when God spoke and did not supplant His words with their opinions which was the norm amongst the Handmaidens and their consorts, charismatics to a fault.
I asked for Lorna to allow me to use a man and wife to set the words of the book up for printing and the going got rougher. Lorna met the desktop publisher and was sent to meet the second last editor. He came back not amused and asked annoyed for him, usually a placid fellow, I hope all Catholics are not like her. He spent more time listening to her academic achievements and her ambitions than discussing the manuscript. He left only to find himself in the rush hour. This was in accord with a priest who read the book and said the introduction told us nothing about Lorna but was extolling the relationship with the Editress's mother and the senior handmaiden. He read the manuscript and we went back to Lorna. We or rather he and Lorna discussed the book he said the scriptural quotations were off a little and could he put this right? He got an agreement from Lorna right away. I said nothing it was, as far as I was concerned, Lorna's place to say what was right or wrong.
The next thing I know I had the editress on the phone giving me poison saying I was changing the book. I was not and never did although the accusations continue still. Lorna was told I was to do the cover I did and that was wrong by the Handmaidens opinions. They showed an absolute lack of knowledge of of jewish symbols for God as described in Teresa Higginson's imprimatured life story. I said I was already printing it and would not stop. She phoned Lorna in tears. At the same time, I was printing and distributing Lorna's newsletter and I was receiving subscriptions for it. I wanted to print the Book at cost but Lorna said no charge us fairly for it. I had given the subscription money to an outsider to keep safe. he was a member up to then of her trust committee. The senior handmaiden said I was to keep it for the work done. I did only to be accused of stealing it by the same woman a day or so later.
The next and very unfortunate incident which was to led to rougher times in subsequent episodes. A desktop publisher turned up and got attached to the Handmaidens sort of like a surrogate daughter. Her private life was a problem for her and she wanted help to put it straight. Lorna and her followers prayed over her often and although Christ told her and Mary told her what to do I felt in witnessing, it was not the answer she expected. The answers were not the way of the world as far as I could see. One day I went to see Lorna on another matter and they were about to repeat the prayer exercise again and Lorna stopped and said Jesus wants to speak to Michael. When we went to pray, nothing happened and we said the St Michael prayer many times until whatever was present was banished. Jealousy and feminine pride was the problem. This, I believe from another person, not present then but was at the previous time, had happened before . Two of those present before were there this time, Lorna and the senior handmaiden.
There were two more occasions one was the chains and fires under Lorna's bed which led to a silly discussion later but that was when Lorna told me she expected the stigmata. I knew, as I did ith the results of the prayer for the chains and fires, this may not be right. I went to a priest who had long conversations with Lorna and told him with his promise to keep it to himself. I left and he quickly phoned her. Lorna phoned me and I said I made her too agitated and not to come round anymore. That was the end except for one Christmas Eve far later. Lorna was at mass which I was told to go too and it was a mass that I never would have frequented. Seeing her I asked to priest to help me make my peace with Lorna. We spoke to her and we accepted each others apologies and promises. The priest heard Lorna agree we should pray together again and she would answer the phone when I called her. Despite repeated calls I have never heard from her again. I know why this abrupt dismissal, but can you any of you say why. It is simple it starts with God's will. Now try to work it out.