First of all, I am often appalled at how I write and I have called your attention to this before. Sometimes I see just how conceited I am. Yet I do try hard to write as didSt John the Evangelist, as an unidentified witness. I miss, as the Greeks would say, "the mark". Some of you have corresponded on the subject matter of these stories of mine that reveal various actions made antagonistically towards me by fellow catholics and priests. My problem in writing in this way, from what many of you have read into my attempts, allows you to see me as some kind of conceited bigot, looking both for vengeance and self justification. For what it may be worth, this is not the reason for writing. I would prefer not to write not to commit these events in writing. It makes the Church look powerless, the hierarchy foolish and might just be construed as self pride on my part. I am as the Saints Augustine and Jose Maria Escriva wrote , "I am only the paint brush. I am certainly not the painter, the genius that paints such glorious pictures. The Holy Ghost mixes the paints and guides me to place them upon the canvas before me. The question, you should ask is, can I write this, is it true and are my feelings legitimate? I do not seek vengeance, why should I? I hope that anyone mentioned who recognized themselves in these words, considers them and applies whatever they see of themselves, then perhaps if they find truths to react and change. I hope they find not an Epiphany but a true Metanoia, This is my wish and prayer for them, if they see any need to alter their behavior. For the record, I do practice the Sacramental life most assiduously, with regularly weekly attendance at the Sacraments of Reconciliation, Penance and the Eucharist. If I was asked, but rarely am, the claim or boast in Christ on my behalf, is this, I have made every effort to free myself of sin, using for my salvific advantage that Edict, passed on to the Apostles by Christ, who had and earned the Power to forgive sins. He passed it on by doing a very Hebraic action, of which they, the Apostles had a full understanding. Jesus Christ breathed Life into them which was to give a life to souls. An act which they knew they could pass on by the forgiveness of sins. Unfortunately today Hierarchs and Bishops huff and puff mightily and what I would call contumaciously. Yet I maintain they are not much avail to the fallen catholics that abound. Overcoming my tendency to digress, the Church teaches if I try to be righteous then Christ in His beneficence leans over me and makes up for all my lack, IF HE SEES SINCERITY PRESENT. Am I boasting, too true I am. Let us together examine why.
So many have translated the Bible over the last years and it has become a nightmare. It is obvious since so many have deliberately changed so much to make it easy to justify what they want to believe is right (for them). I agree without fear of correction that in the early days of my language, English, and in any language for that matter vocabularies were small and one word meant so much. Now language to me is a form of revelation and it has to grow as we become more sophisticated in communication. Unfortunately with the advent of rap one finds communications are stunted and coarse and more sexual in nature. I believe and know we had to take words from other peoples to find new and “elevated” meanings for old words. We had to, to separate one meaning from another. In the English language the many meanings of and I give you examples in the following words; language still called tongues; dancing is still called playing; end in certain cases is still not yet age and boasting, which should be glorifying. There is one more absolutely descriptive it is called “Paying the price for a dog”, It might help you to remember Sodom had not yet taken place when this edict was given in the Old Law. Words like language and dance according to the Oxford etymological Dictionary did not enter English until the 1660’s. Even I might add those outside the Church who translate the Fathers have given their translations a new spin. There is a Collection of volumes of Church Father Translations which many Catholics use that state unequivocally that Cyprian of Carthage was estranged from the Pope in a way that separated him from the Church.
The meanings in scriptures today are not the same as the meanings used many years ago. Even Hollywood in the movie The Ten Commandments got it right and the controversy over the scene with the Hebrews celebrating or carousing (playing after the communal meal) in the desert, seen in the scene of the morning after with the woman and the bronze bull was tremendously accurate of what went on. Yet it is sinfully amusing how so many words have been adjusted in new scriptural translations that complement so many wrong beliefs. It has gone further in fact, as can be recognized in our now acceptable wrong understandings of humility, charity and peace, more defined by a Madison Ave. rush to feel good, mixing by misdirecting Charity as love, described in some cases as one night stands. The unstated but obvious understanding sexual touching of any kind is good since God created the sexual act for our pleasure. One of the latest tragedies for us is the new meaning of marriage, rapidly being defined by secular law. Humility has a new interpretation whose new meaning through our egotistical need to defend our space has became more of a demand to prostrate yourself before me as a person. Peace unfortunately is a lull in our spiritual life, a feeling without joy, more a truce with the devil who is happy you are in his thrall and does not need to agitate your soul by temptation. How can we get true peace in this world, where we are in what must be considered a spiritual war to overcome wickedness unless we have lost that war? Why should he, when he, wickedness, has so many of us firmly in the palm of his hand. You don’t believe me then start to examine your conscience in the light of the Church teachings of sin. That is if you can find them or a priest to teach you. Look at the idiocy often stated that we cannot teach children about sin and hell as it frightens them. Where is Christ in that dumb statement coming from the foolish? Would Christ who says let the Children come to me not through grace sustain them. If you as parents are frightened by Hell, do something about the state of your soul. You can’t say there is no sin because you are not aware of any. By the way can the true practicing catholic be ever at peace in this world when he or she knows that most catholics today actively justify abortions, birth control and euthanasia?
Now let me go further, not in an attempt to force you all or to justify my belief in myself. But like you I have free will and like me you have to inform your conscience. This is another Church Teaching. I write, this after making inquiries of Catholics and find majority do not know this. I read all I can find on the Church teachings and I am so amazed how they have changed the writings of our Church Fathers in today’s translations of them by those outside the Church. I do believe St Paul, who wrote in his 2nd. Letter to Timothy chapter three verses 16 and 17, “All scripture, inspired of God, is profitable to teach, to reprove, to correct, to instruct in justice, That the man of God may be perfect, furnished to every good work”. Is this statement false today?
Now here is something to give you one of the two reasons I write, St Paul again in 2nd. Corinthians Chapter 10 verse 8 to 11, wrote, “For if also I should boast somewhat more of our power, which the Lord hath given us unto edification, and not for your destruction, I should not be ashamed. But that I may not be thought as it were to terrify you by epistles, (For his epistles indeed, say they, are weighty and strong; but his bodily presence is weak, and his speech contemptible,) Let such a one think this, that such as we are in word by epistles, when absent, such also we will be indeed when present”.
I want to return to what I think is an error of sorts that springs from bad translations. St Paul’s boasting is two things, one: it is a more powerful revelation than the one’s we claim in our lives as Corinthians, Romans or Hebrews. Two: it is a recommendation to go public with all that God has given us, you and me. It is comparable to Christ in the Scriptures when he warns us about hiding the light, our light under a bushel basket. Christ told us to be a good example. How can we be a good example? Do you have any thoughts on the matter? As you know I am going to give you mine, in any case. We can be a good example by showing (boasting by action) the virtue of religion that is if we have not put aside the Virtue of Charity in its most active form by mortal sin. The virtue of religion compels us to approach God in the way He deserves, using bodily worship, to demonstrate our interior life. That is how we dress when we visit Him. How we adore Him. How we pay Him homage with reverence and by being in the right disposition not just to meet Him but to receive Him. By Glorifying Him we boast of Him and we should. By the way a synonym for to boast is to glorify, either by example in our case or giving all our actions and worship to God as we are intended to by His creation of us. Read the Catechism and see if you doubt what I have written. Now I return to my original theme.
Returning to the theme of pastoral abuse and ineptness, I wish to stress that whatever comes my way interiorly does at times give me cause for concern. Like St Paul who wrote similarly in 1st. Corinthians I say unless you know my catholic religious life, my prayer life and my life in the Sacraments, be very careful on any observations, any judgments you make. I can give you examples of misdirection by those who calling themselves Catholic, do not have a clue about the Catholic Mystical life. I am not talking about the supernatural but the use of the Holy Mysteries (Sacraments) of the Church used as Christ meant them to be used by us that is to earn salvation.
Let me give you a take by St Augustine and Ezekiel on what we are supposed to do. Unfortunately the priesthood does claim Augustine wrote for them but since Ezekiel said more or less the same and there were no priests then I think it is a bit of Pastoral arrogance. "Do you realize the dangers that could result from keeping quiet? A godless man dies, and rightly so; he dies in his own sin and his godlessness; it is his own negligence that kills him” Here Augustine means he could have gone to his priest but he did not. There is also negligence on the part of the Priest if he remains silent knowing of any problem. However the man who remained silent through negligence (that is not looking after his soul or even informing his conscience) and the one who should have admonished him (in every case not just the pastor but any of his brothers and sisters in Christ ( that is the statement in 1st. Corinthians chapter 5. All of us guilty of that avoidance of responsibility towards our relatives in Christ for that failure to admonish priests, pastors and others in the Church are all condemned too. But as scriptures say and if he or she warns the godless man….."You are going to die and if the relative fails to avoid falling upon the sword Christ gave us (that is our catholic faith) and the sword kills him he will die in his sin but the caring relative in Christ will have saved his or her own soul”. Ezek 33:2, 9.
For those of you and there are many who do not know what death or dead to Christ means in the Catholic sense let me quote Christus Dominus article 30 of Vatican 2. “After Baptism, the Sacrament of Penance received with the right DISPOSITIONS restores Sanctifying grace and is moreover, a means Christ chooses to conserve mankind in grace and bring them growth in grace (merits): “The Sacrament of Penance contributes much to the development of the Catholic Life. Are you recently developed?
There is a state of grace that comes from Genesis called original innocence which we lost because of the heredity of original sin (Augustine again). St Paul describes this in 1 Cor. 6:11 and Eph 5 and Tit 3. when he talks of Baptismal Innocence telling them to return to that state by a new conversion, for Practicing Catholics it is the Sacrament of Penance and Reconciliation., after which we are risen and not fallen as we always used to say.
In Lumen gentium 40; The followers of Jesus Christ, called by God not in virtue of their works but by His design and grace, justified (I think that justified is wrong it should be in the better sense righteous, since
The Paper is talking about after baptism) in the Lord Jesus, have been made sons of God in Baptism, the sacrament of faith, and partakers of the Divine Nature and are truly sanctified. They must therefore hold on to and perfect in their lives that sanctification which they have received from God”. I have always believed as I was taught that this loss of sanctifying grace is dead to Christ no life in the soul due to mortal sin. Using the English language I would say another way of saying this is slain (dead) to the Spirit (Christ)
So now have done with your cantankerousness and your phlegm and see I if am justified in warning any of you who desires to become as the Orthodox say "in a state of Theosis" which we call a State of Grace must both warn ourselves and others of errors in our spiritual life and tell others of their errors in the same life. So be careful of your judgment and condemnation, you might fall upon Christ’s sword. Furthermore as St Thomas said and St Charles Borromeo said, “Even a Pontiff who is wrong must be corrected”.